waiting on God

So much has happened. Christmas. A new job for Charlie. No work for me. I pray and read my Philipians 4 over that I am trying to memorize. My God shall supply all your needs according to HIS riches in glory. There is the answer. God has it all covered. I know he will take care of us. Worry is my greatest burden as I try to take it all on myself. I feel guilty when I don't have work that can scoop us up out of financial troubles. It has happened before...And then I realize that God is showing me the life of Gidieon. The faith of the Widow with Paul...He doesn't tell these stories to say you may win the lottery, but that He has and will follow through. In His time.

We decided that without money it wouldn't be right to be fostering right now. If we came to a situation where a child needed something and we couldn't afford it I would be sick. We've lived on the dastardly CREDIT for the whole year and the idea of it is frightening. I wonder how many other families have come to this brink just like us?

Christmas was lovely. We didn't have any money so I really focused on the Christ in Christmas. The Choir specials seemed more intense and meaningful. Our visits with family more precious. It was calm and hassle-free and I appreciated it greatly. I get embarrassed about not having money for gifts, but the ones who love us understand.

Somewhat a downer of a blog, but also an optimistic one. God is in control, He loves us, and promises to care for us always. How wonderful of a Christmas present is that?

Long and Winding Road: We are Alike, She & I

Long and Winding Road: We are Alike, She & I

In The Beginning,,,

There is so much to think about; to write about. Do I have friends who have better spelling and grammar and the ability to crush me with it? Of course I do. My friends are all of the snarky persuasion or they wouldn't be able to stand me. Of that I am sincerely thankful.

I am blogging because I have read several friends' blogs about their families and foster experiences and I am itching to jump into the conversation. This has been the most exciting and frightening experience of our lives and it's been all of three months.

We had baby girl for two months and then she went to stay with a wonderful aunty and uncle that have added her and her brother to their family of four to truly make a happy nest for them all. I am so happy to know sweet baby girl is safe, happy and loved. She went through so much physically that worries of the future still hang over her like a cloud, but I believe her new family is up to the challenge.

We did respite (foster family babysitting) for a weekend for two twin five month olds. That was incredible! And so wearying! I promptly fell into a heap when they went back to mommy.

My sweet Hubby and I haven't had any of our own, but we are proud "Godparents" to our church youth group. I like that phrase because I feels just exactly like what we are. We guide them and love them like parents should to the greater understanding of God's love. What a responsibility and joy it is! I love each and every one like my own. They call me bunny. What a silly thing to call me! They say it's because my Hubby says I sometimes live in my own world with bunnies and flowers and ...well. So I'm Bunny.

I am stressed and worried and not so proud of myself for not seemingly trusting in God to lead us. I always want to take the lead and make the decisions before turning to Him. Pray for me and my Sweetheart that God will help us in our job search and our return to fostering. We didn't feel right fostering without a job in the mix. We will respite for a while, then return when his job settles in.

God is in Control. I have this sweet book of the Promises of God that I love to turn to when I worry or become frustrated. Thank you, Jesus for loving us so much and calming my spirit with your sweet promises.